So I have decided to stop providing sensual massage earlier than planned. After some not so pleasant experiences in November that made me stop and think I realized that I could not continue. Even though my plan was to only do it for a short time while I save some money, it didn’t seem worth it to continue. I spent plenty of days not working due to me avoiding taking calls, which meant I was just barely getting by anyway so I am returning to doing what I feel comfortable doing.
All my new ads no longer include sensual massage, although, I am getting less calls I feel fine with that. I have seen one client so far, he was respectful of the fact that nothing extra is available. I did receive a call yesterday from a guy who said he just saw my ad and had some questions, I knew he wasn’t just looking for a massage. He asked how long my table was because he is 6 and a half. I asked him to explain and he said that’s how tall he is. Ok, then he asks if I am good and how long I have been doing “this.” I said I have been doing massage almost 4 years. Then he said he has a request; he wanted to know if while he was on the table I would tell him how big and well-endowed he is? I told him I am not providing a happy ending massage for anyone and if he read my ad it is a regular massage otherwise I would be charging a lot more. After a pause, he replies, “so you won’t tell me that I am well-endowed?” My reply was “no” and I hung up. I am glad to not have to put on any pretense with these types of guys anymore. I am not going to stroke some guy’s um ego for an extra $30-$40 while his behavior pushes my self esteem down the toilet. I only want to do things that are in alignment with my future plans and erotic massage is not it.
I get asked if doing the hand jobs was a turn on and I can answer with a resounding “NO!” Imagine you have a job to do and that’s what it was (and some guy that you have zero attraction to) keeps trying to grab and fondle you. A few times I ended up with bruises from some guys rubbing or grabbing me too roughly, and that’s with the very limited touching I allowed, I can only imagine if I had allowed more. God bless those people who can do this for years and not be affected by it, I really don’t see how they do it
