Sensual massage for women

An interesting thing has been occurring, in the last week and a half I have received calls from two different men who were looking to book massages for their girlfriends. They start out asking if I massage women and I say yes I offer a Swedish massage, the first guy said "oh, ok" and got off the phone. The second guy actually started by asking if I massage couples but I don't because I work alone and then he asks if I massage women, I told him I do a Swedish massage for women and then he asks if I do other types of massages but doesn't come straight out with it so I ask him exactly what he has in mind and he said he wants to get her a sensual massage. I said I don't do sensual massage for women.

I find it interesting though that it's men making these calls and not the women calling themselves. I am guessing it is probably the man's fantasy and they would probably want to be present during the massage and watch or participate in a session :-) I had someone once say that he would love to watch me massage a woman. I am neither a lesbian nor bisexual but massaging women might be less trouble than massaging men, if only I was willing to find out but I am not, oh well.

Shaving chest and genital hair

I have been noticing more and more clients are shaving their chest and genital area and I even had a guy who also shaved his legs. I think hair on a man's chest is masculine but a hairy back, not so attractive. I can understand removing hair from the back and even trimming overgrown genital hair down a bit. I don't really get the whole clean shaven look and I have also seen one older man who had obviously shaved his chest hairs. I can feel the stubbles and it's prickly to the touch and I always wonder why a man would want to do that. I don't like shaving my legs or genitals but do it out of necessity only, although, I have had men call and ask if I am unshaven so there are men out there who are into hairy women.

Maybe they like the neat look but it just seems weird to me to have a hairless man on my table. Curiosity just might lead me to ask one of these guys why one day.

Teeny Weeny Grabby Guy

I hate offering discounted massages, the first time I advertised a $20 discount was not bad, I received several calls from people wanting to come in but I was only able to see two new clients that day because I had other things to do. It's been a slow week so I thought I could bring in some people by offering a discount in my ad this morning. I got a call from this guy who saw my ad and wanted a massage. This guy with big shoulders showed up and took him to my massage area, collected payment and left him to get undressed. When I returned he was lying on his stomach, as most good clients should, I saw that he did have big shoulders but from the waist down he was pretty tiny. As I massaged his back he reached out and rubbed my thigh and this continued for a while but I was not bothered because he was within my comfort zone. I usually spend some time teasing the balls and I have easier access to do this by kneeling on the floor near my table.

Apparently me being in this position gave him a good angle to reach out and touch the side of my breast, which I usually don't allow but I figured it was harmless since they are covered anyway and he was only touching the side. Big mistake, he took it as a sign I guess, he started grabbing and squeezing hard and I had to tell him that that was not allowed. I got up and went around to start working on his front and his hands were rubbing all over my underwear. At this point I saw that he was also tiny down there and I start working to get the teeny weeny to get up but his hands were going everything and I kept moving away but he would grab somewhere else. He hands got past the perimeters of my underwear a couple of times before I moved away. I was getting upset at this point and just wanted to get it done so he could leave but there was no erection although he seemed quite excited. It got to the point where I physically removed his hand from my underwear and asked if he had read my ad because I am not an escort and what he was doing was getting in the way of me giving him what he paid for. I usually go overtime a few extra minutes before I finish a massage but I stopped a few minutes early with him. He did not get a happy ending, I guess it was more important to him to touch someone, even if it was unwanted. After he was dressed and ready to leave he looked ridiculously meek, ugh! This is the type of client I really dislike because they disregard boundaries and are cheapskates. I cancelled the discounted ad after he left.

@@@@ Massagetr@ll

I don't really want to advertise this horrible website I found but over the last couple weeks I noticed that a lot the calls I have been receiving were people looking for more than a happy ending massage even though in my ad I state that I only do massage. I did a search of my phone number and found a couple of my ads on a site I never advertised on. The page was littered with naked women and I was overdressed. Apparently the site takes ads from craigslist and backpage and adds a line that implies that the person in the picture can be found on some other site and offers other services, I did not click on the link to the other site (I saw enough crap on massagetr@ll to get what they are about) both sites are probably owned by the same person or they are affiliated. They have the nerve to stamp the bottom of my stolen pictures with their name and even though I contacted them to remove it, the ads are still up. I think I have figured out a way to prevent future ads from been stolen though.

I had one guy who sounded quite nervous and very young call me to make an appt. and then after he made the appt he asked if I provide full service and I told him no, he didn't cancel the appt. but I suspected he was not going to show up. Spoke to another guy who asked what kind of massage I do and I asked if he read my ad, he said yes but wanted to know if I end the massage with a handjob or blowjob. I said handjob and ended the call. I am finding that most (read: all) men don't bother to read the ad, I tried to prevent that by putting my phone number at the end but they simply skip to the end and get the number. My ad would take less than I minute to read and it gives important info but these men call and ask questions that are already answered in the ad and it just gets annoying. On the other hand I guess it's good that they aren't showing up for an appt. with the expectation of getting more than a handjob and end up being disappointed. It seems some of the recent callers might be finding "my ads" on the site I didn't advertise on and the others are just guys who are too lazy to read the freaking ad before calling me.

I am barely ok with ending my massages with a handjob so a blowjob is not an option I would consider doing to a stranger. The things I have learned in the last few months have showed me how naive I have been in the past but now that I am here I have to keep reminding myself that doing this type of work cannot and will not be a longterm thing for me.



***They finally removed my ads from the site almost 3 weeks after I emailed them, yay for me***

Penis envy

I wish guys would understand that size doesn’t matter as much as knowing how to use what you do have. So far, it’s been the older guys that seem to feel overly concerned with size. The younger guys are too busy attempting to see how much they can get away with to worry about size. It’s interesting that the men who have expressed concerned over size are not the smallest penises I have seen. I have never liked painful sex and I don’t think most women enjoy it either and an average size penis is just right unless the owner is too busy going on and on about how it’s not big enough. In these cases I just want to say “shut up and enjoy the hand job will ya?” -:)

I set a new deadline for myself

I have been doing a lot of thinking the last few week and I have decided that I will continue doing sensual massages for the next 6 months, which is still within my initial plan to not go past a year with this. I find myself avoiding taking calls and only seeing clients when my finances can't stretch any further. I know ending a massage with a happy ending is illegal here and even though I feel people should be able to make their own decisions, I think doing this bothers me in a moral sense as well and that's why it's been a struggle for me so far. I think in a way I feel like I sold my soul to the devil and I need to have something to show for it, therefore, I will continue for now. I was raised Catholic, haven't stepped into a Catholic church in years but I guess some of that "Catholic guilt" lingers on. I have to get past that and start making this work for me so that I will be in a different place financially by my deadline.

I've been discovered (I thought) and second thoughts

I saw two new older clients today, probably both in their 60's so I guess the older crowd didn't all disappear. The first guy is someone I have seen at a place I go to, although, I don't actually "know" him he has definitely seen me there as well. I didn't even realize it was him until after he left, maybe he thought I just didn't want to acknowledge him but I was clueless until after. I expected at some point that something like this would happen. I don't particularly care about his opinion but there are other people he might say something to and I have suspected that some others might be aware of the new services I now offer.

***Turns out it was NOT the guy I thought it was, I thought he had dyed his gray hair black but it wasn't him. Phew!****

My ad is not disguised in any way and the way I look makes me stand out like a sore thumb. Even before this incident today, I have spent the last couple of days wondering if I really want to continue doing sensual massage. I don't feel bad about venturing into this but I also don't want to be known only as the happy ending massage girl. I think that my deciding to do sensual massage was my way of trying to gain some control over a situation that I felt powerless in and now I worry that if I attempt to go the route of therapeutic massage again I would just end up frustrated once again.

I think offering this service has helped me become less judgmental about other people, prior to this experience I thought women who provided happy endings were a disgrace to the massage community and now that I have walked in those shoes I see how it could happen. Everyone's story is different but for me money has played a huge part. I wasn't really making much doing legitimate massage and I was getting angrier with each encounter where I was propositioned to do more. So I made the conscious decision to go this route and now just a few months later I am questioning whether that decision was the right one for me.