Why I decided to offer erotic massage

If someone had told me six months ago that I would be providing erotic massage services to men I would have laughed because I never saw myself as "that type" I was more the type that was disgusted at the masseuse who provides that type of services and the customers who go to them. I did my first sensual massage (hand job) towards the end of June after some thought. I think people who know me personally would be very surprised if they knew that I crossed that line because I have always been very vocal about my dislike for the customers who seek happy endings. After massage school I was pretty unprepared to deal with clients that I encountered when I first started advertising on craigslist. I learned the hard way that just about everyone who responds to an ad from there is looking for "extras" even when, or especially when the ad states that you only do therapeutic massage, I think they see it as a challenge.


My first couple of months following massage school was frustrating because although most were respectful once I told them I was not providing those types of services many of the men claimed to have problems with their glutes and/or thighs in order to get me close to their genitals anyway. After about five months of this I was so angry that I took about a year off from doing massage and I started back last year to basically find the same types of men. I also started using another site that was similar to craigslist but the men on this site were more forthright about what they were looking for, most were not pretending to have some issues with their glutes/thighs.


I always wore pants and a top when doing a massage and I had offers to be paid more if I disrobed or did extras and I always declined. As the summer started business was slow and I had an older gentleman who came to me for a massage for the first time and he raved about what a great massage I gave (no happy ending). We talked quite a bit about everything and the topic came up and he said that it was fine if I don't provide that service he would be back anyway and he gave me a pretty big tip, for the first time I did not feel resentful towards a male client. I think I had started to reconsider my stance on sensual massage at that point and I told myself that it would not be the end of the world if I did cross that line. Also doing therapeutic massage was not bringing in a lot of clients and money was always a problem.


That gentleman returned and this time I ended the massage with the best hand job I knew how and he was pleasantly surprised. Over the next couple of months when he wasn't traveling he would get a weekly massage and I have polished my skills on him. In September I started advertising that I was providing sensual full body massages and the response have been quite good. I am trying to be more selective of who I accept now. When I feel I need a break I do not see clients for a week or two. I do not do massage in the nude, I now wear a sheer or crop top with some panty. Some men do get grabby and have I sometimes allowed a hand to wander up and down my legs only but most of the time I am out of their reach. I have been offered more money to go topless and have declined.


As of right now I feel ok with this and I am trying to have a plan in place so that I will not be in this situation in a year because this is not something I see myself doing on a long-term basis. The men are obviously getting something out of it and I am going to make sure that I get myself in a better financial position in the coming months so that I do not feel a need to continue this unless I want to.